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Once I Was a Great Bullfighter

with Bob Kaufman

I love every square inch the monuments aren’t.

I walk over them, same the as-of-yet unmarked

days on the calendar that will remind us to pour

one out and think of our sweet dead friend.

His guffaw a black carrot of denial

burned in the toasters of our memory.

It’s a question I keep asking:

If the passenger pigeons covered the sun

for three days in a row as they flocked over

why not now a long death-shadow like hot taffy?

Drunk up in a single gulp of eyesight

and crushed on the floors of time: love,

a telepathy I’ve been tuned to.

Now a stupid Star Wars thing I’m asking:

How can Alec Guinness look in the middle distance

and say as if millions of voices cried out in terror

and were suddenly silenced while I must sit

in this old soup of the I bet often cheery dead

not tasting one of their bad or good attitudes?

Don’t laugh at my ignorance! Once I was

a great bullfighter. My prize was strips of flank

steak I took home from my spectatored murder.

I kept what I killed in my bursting gut.